7/14/2016Chester, you were my first unconditional love in adulthood. You taught me that unconditional love is giving your best at all times. Best does not mean perfect. It means what you could give in that moment, at that time. You were my little boy. My best friend. My strength. My companion. My partner. My home. Of all the states we lived in and journeys we took together, wherever you were, you became my home. We were a team. You got me through those sleepless all-nighters in law school. Sitting in my lap, purring away, staying awake with me. You got me through the toxic relationship. You soothed me through the loss of my close friend. We found a cozy new home together here in Houston--a fresh start from all the other starts. I felt my life took off and every time I came back from the stress of life outside our home, I was always met by you at the door, rubbing up against my legs, greeting me. I would sit on the couch and you would cuddle into my neck and purr up a storm. You would nuzzle your nose into my hand and say "Mommy. I'm here. Be here with me." That white noise of life didn't matter much. You were that reminder. Always. In the last two years, I would leave for work everyday and get into my little car, and I would say to God, "Thank you, God, for my life." Thank you for my health. My parents' health. I have my great job, my cute little car, my cozy little home, I have my loving boyfriend (who got me through this today), and I have Chester. You have always been a huge part of my blessings. I hope you felt my love for you. I did my very best. You deserved the very best. A once in a lifetime soul crossed paths with me. I am so very lucky. With love and chin rubs and cuddles one last time, you went to bed on your favorite blanket in my lap, with Wim telling you how loved you are, for the most yummy, comfortable, restful nap. And I will be forever grateful that you told me when the time was right. Thank you, God, for my life. Thank you for Mr. Chester Loon Totman. Thank you, God, for Chester.Elizabeth TotmanHouston, TexasJuly 15, 2016
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What a beautiful boy he was. I love this picture... You can tell he's the king of his castle. I know how special he was to you.Christina Fenton - July 16, 2016

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