3/17/2007 - 8/23/2019Losing you was the worst thing I've ever gone though, my sweet boy. I feel like a piece of my heart is missing and that it will never feel unbroken. I loved you as my child, as my constant companion and as my best friend. Watching you go from the vibrant and carefree pup to a sick and struggling fur baby was truly heart wrenching. The cancer took over your body, but your brain and heart were still strong and loving.

When your dad and sister and I realized that you didn't enjoy the things you loved most and struggled so terribly to just stand, go to the bathroom, and breathe, we knew we had to offer you peace. You still tried to act normal even though I know it was exhausting to just keep up with simple things. When you no longer waited at the window to bark and jump after seeing another dog outside, when you stopped trying to barrel through the door to scare the mailman or UPS delivery guy, when you stopped sniffing around the yard to find that tiny little piece of grass that was just perfect to mark and hurried inside after 4 seconds and a quick potty break, when you started to leave food in your bowl when you used to be so happy to see your dry food drop, and when you decided that "going to bed" was more of struggle than a pleasure, we knew. We knew that the things you loved to do weren't fun or possible anymore. Your life as a high-energy and curious pup wasn't going to return.

We tried as much as we could to help you. We would have spent millions if it would have saved you. Cancer just won your body, but your spirit and love for us never diminished. There have been so many times in the last week that I have spoken to you, but you weren't there. I have looked for you, but I can't see you. I can't hug your head or kiss your face or scratch your butt, or smell your fur. But, I won't ever forget what you look like, smell like or sound like. I will remember you being the strong and carefree puppy you once were. If I close my eyes, I will see you lying in your favorite spot in the family room and in the front yard. I will see the curiosity in your eyes when you see a bunny or a cat run through the yard. You are a part of me forever and ever, Rex. You may not be here in body, but I know you are here in spirit. We will never fill the void left by you. You loved us unconditionally and we loved your unconditionally. You taught us patience and how to be good parents. Thank you for your love and devotion.
I love you so, so much, my handsomest man. Until we meet again!
Courtney SullivanMcDonald, PennsylvaniaAugust 31, 2019
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